{The Ordinary Moments 14} #3

 I absolutely love how much Judah adores Eden.  She is his favourite person, and most of the time (apart from when he’s having an ignorant moment and leans on her without realising she can’t support his weight, mummy to the rescue) he takes such good care of her.  She is his little princess and he (again, unless he’s unwittingly crushing her) is her hero.

I’ve noticed their relationship brings everyone great joy who see their interactions with each other.  

It’s really sweet how he took it upon himself the morning of the funeral to give her a lovely kiss.  She was asleep at the time but didn’t mind being woken up by a kiss.  She soon drifted back off anyway.

I am so excited to be able to capture these images with my new camera that has arrived whilst we were away.  I collected it from the depot last night.  As the total newb that I am to photography, I didn’t even realise I needed a memory card.  So, was gutted whilst setting up my camera last night that I couldn’t start experimenting straight away.  *oops* oh well ordered a 32gb online and might pick up a 4gb at the supermarket this morning whilst I wait for it to arrive.  Total geek I know, but I’m too excited.

Packing to move today whilst the girls are at dance, so better crack on with my day.

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Depressed with Dieting : my baby weight loss journey #6

After being so good on Wednesday with what I ate, I hadn’t lost any weight that day, although I hadn’t put any on either, so I can’t complain.  Not good to weigh yourself daily really, I just wanted to assess what’s going on as I try and establish a routine, especially as I’m keeping this food diary at the moment.  It’s really easy to see where I went wrong and to avoid that again.  I did realise though that I’d lost half a stone in the first 5 days, pretty good going.  Scary how big I am though, that I can lose half a stone and not really even be able to tell in my clothes *oops*.  Oh well, just need to keep going.

My husband and I were so exhausted after the emotional day before so it would’ve been very easy to spend the day in bed, but, we decided that it is so rare for us to be able to get any time together without pressure to do other things that we would seize the opportunity whilst we were here at the inlaws.  

It was really sunny in the morning, so we took the Bugaboo Donkey and off we went to the seaside (about 100yards from my inlaws front door).  

I had already consumed some buttered toast, but I was sniffing out for a strong coffee.  The hubby fancied a cafe breakfast so we ventured to find somewhere.  It was difficult to find a quaint little cafe that we could navigate with the Donkey.  We also needed to find somewhere I could comfortably and discreetly feed Eden.  In the end we found somewhere that wasn’t ideal but just about managed to hit the criteria.  

James had a large breakfast, and I ordered Judah and I an omelette with ham, cheese, bacon and onion.  It was served with salad and chunky oven chips, which was bizarre at 11am, but luckily Judah consumed most of the chips to spare me the extra calories.

After this big meal we didn’t need a lunch, the babies fell asleep as we set off to the Pier to find some fun rides for Judah.  So, instead we had his and hers ice-creams.  

James chose bubblegum sauce so that his was blue (for a boy) bless him, he’s not normally so geeky but I think the excitement of us getting a day together was going to his head.

We sat on the pier and had a lovely snuggle up on a bench as the babies slept.  Then the fog started coming in (have you seen on the news?) so we wandered inland for another coffee.  I had a frappe latte in Nero, needed to feed Eden again, with an extra shot of espresso to keep myself awake.

In the evening we were taking James’ mum out to celebrate her birthday that had been the week before, it had unfortunately been clouded by everybody’s grief, including her own.  So we wanted to take her out after the funeral, just to give her something nice to do.  She chose a little Italian, I had determined that it wouldn’t be too bad and I would endeavour to find something healthy to eat.  The Italian was closed though *boo*.  So we ended up at a lovely little Indian called ‘le Spice’ the food and staff were amazing if you’re ever in Worthing, West-Sussex.  They were very helpful with the double buggy, friendly with Judah, even when he poured James’ cobra beer all over the table *dismayed*.  Eden slept all the way through but I’m sure if I’d needed to nurse her there wouldn’t have been any awkwardness.

This however, was not ideal for my trying to eat healthier.  Although, I made some good choices and some bad… I resisted a starter (hmm… bhaji’s, pakora) only drank water, chose and then consumed a less saucy dish, I had garlic chicken (never had at an Indian before, but I wasn’t really in the mood for a curry, I usually love it, but just didn’t fancy it). I had my main with special rice (egg and peas) and some chips (again *hangs head*) as Judah loved dipping them in the various curries available on the table.  I also had garlic naan, delicious.  So, not very successful on the healthy eating front.  I could try and justify it as it was a special occasion, but I could’ve quite easily avoided the naan and chips and had as delicious a meal, with less calories.

Scared to weigh myself today, I was happy with my half a stone weight loss so far, but I guess it’s a journey and I need to remember to make better choices.

We have booked our holiday now though *excited face* so I have an extra incentive to be good.  So exciting!  Wish me luck.

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The Gallery : yellow

This picture was taken whilst I sat outside the Crematorium with two sleeping babies in the car.  The colour of the day today was yellow. Yellow represents the memories that were shared today.  Bright, loving and fun-filled.
My husbands family buried a loved one today, my husband’s cousin, and after dying at only thirty-one the funeral was more of a tribute, a celebration of his life.

The flowers on the coffin were full of bright yellow roses.  It reminded me of my wedding flowers.  My bouquet was yellow roses.  There was nothing dreary about the day.  The service ended with Pharrel’s ‘happy’ track from Despicable Me2.

Judah loves Despicable Me and had taken his Minion Dave with him to play with at the wake as there were no other littlies in attendance.

Yellow surrounded my day, and will be forever ingrained in my memories.

 

Depressed with Dieting : my baby weight loss journey #4

Today was a crazy hectic day but I felt that I did well considering.

I weighed myself in the morning and had only put on 300g’s (134.7kg’s) which wasn’t too bad after my fail yesterday.  I decided that despite the busyness that awaited me I would try my best not to do as bad.  

Just over a week ago we drove down to West Sussex from Lancashire and we had lots of naughty snacks for the car.  Chocolate (not much though, I’m not really a chocolate fan) cheese sticks (you know the buttery bread stick kind?), stopped for Macdonald’s and other treats.  I drank lots of coca cola too so I had many calories.

Trolley Fun

This morning I went to the supermarket whilst my hubster was at work to buy the snacks for the journey and was deliberate about not buying as much junk this time.  I bought some organix snacks and yoghurt covered raisins etc. for Judah, and some chicken bites (just little flavoured bits of chicken breast), snack a jacks, that sort of thing for myself and the hubby.  I hadn’t had breakfast but instead of going through the Macdonald’s Drive-Thru (very tempting) I had a pack of chicken bites (pretty much just protein). *first win*

I had only had about 2 hours sleep last night as we were up late packing, and Eden struggled to settle, so I then went through the Starbucks Drive-Thru for a triple shot skinny vanilla latte.  I needed caffeine if I was to do the long drive ahead of me, I also had a blueberry muffin *mini fail*

As I’m writing this I realise I didn’t eat the most healthy today *oops* but there were so many opportunities where I could’ve (and usually would have) been so much worse, so I am happy with my little wins along the way.

When I had picked up the hubster and we were setting off on our at least 6 hour journey, he wanted KFC for lunch.  This just seemed like a really bad idea to me, but, I had a mini fillet and a popcorn snack box.  Normally I would consume one of the big box meals, large, with gravy,  and usually towered, with a large Pepsi.  So, I thought this was another mini win for myself.  We only stopped once on the motorway because Judah needed a nappy change and I needed caffeine.  Another triple shot skinny vanilla latte was consumed.  I resisted stopping for dinner in the hopes that it would prevent me eating an unhealthy service station meal (last time was a Burger King).  We arrived at the in laws in record time and they had just bought fish and chips, so that’s what we had for dinner.  Again, not ideal but wasn’t my choice and I did leave half a battered fish instead of demolishing everything.  Another mini win by my standards.

I’m not going to weigh myself as we are away from home now for a few days, but I am hoping to see positive results by the time we return.

I will leave you with the lovely view I had whilst consuming my Starbucks earlier today….

Hmm…. Blueberry

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Depressed with Dieting : my baby weight loss journey #3

Today has been a massive failure of gargantuan proportions.  It all started off so well, we had weight watchers bacon (you know the type with all the fat cut off) and fried (in fry-lite) eggs for breakfast.  Slimming World friendly. Then…… I began my tasks for the day.

*uh oh*

Funeral Favours

I had to go to the retail park to buy Haribo as I was making funeral favours to take down South with us tomorrow.  James’ cousin was a HUGE sweet lover so I thought it would be nice to have these at the wake.

I determined that it would just be a quick outing so I would not take the Bugaboo Donkey as it’s not as quick to assemble from the back of our Toyota Yaris as the micralite superlite.  So, I figured I would just wear Eden in the baby björn.

Baby Wearing

I had just been to fill up the car with petrol before our long drive tomorrow and when I arrived at the till at Poundland I realised I had left my bank card with the hubster, not before I’d emptied the entire contents of my handbag on the counter (twice).  So, I bought what I could with the pound coins in the car I keep for parking, then left to get my bank card back from James.  After, a big rant and then some laughs at myself I returned back to the retail park and purchased the rest of the sweets I needed, and also bought some clothes for Judah and Eden from Next and Mamas & Papas!  I have a severe shopping problem when it comes to the children so I need to be restrained.  However, having to push a stroller and wear a baby did not deter this avid shopper.  I will post pics of the children in my purchases on Wednesday for the funeral.  

I decided it had been a stressful morning and therefore Judah and I deserved a quick lunch (before I had to get on) *fail number 1*

We went through the Macdonald’s drive thru and I had a plain (no lettuce or mayo) chicken legend meal – large *ahem* (hangs head) with a coke *sigh*.  Judah had a chicken nugget Happy Meal. (See my post on Fast Food Mommy

At this point, aside from failing my own challenge to avoid these food short cuts, especially for Judah, I reasoned that this wasn’t too bad a failure.  I had weighed myself again in the morning (after breakfast) and had lost weight AGAIN somehow (134.4kg’s).  We arrived home, munched our lunch and then I cracked on making the favours.

The baby ate it, not me!

I managed to resist any and all sweets whilst making the favours, Judah munched some though.  Then proceeded with some housework, collected the mister from work and then took him out for dinner *fail number 2*.  I thought if we just had the Macdonald’s slip up at lunch and I had a healthy dinner it wouldn’t be too bad…. However, we ended up at Frankie & Benny’s (wouldn’t blame you if you never read my blog again).  

I had potato skins with BBQ chicken & sweetcorn to start, some of Judah’s cheesy garlic bread & the chicken parmigiana for my main.  Two glasses of Pepsi. *sad face*

I enjoyed my food but writing it down in this post now makes me feel sad, I failed big time.  Tomorrow I will begin again.  The scales will probably show my failure when I weigh myself tomorrow morning.

This face makes me feel better though….

Judah enjoying his Spaghetti

In the words of Scarlet O’Hara ‘after all, tomorrow is another day’

The Ordinary Moments #3

The Ordinary Moments #3

It has been another crazy week at our house. The hubby is awaiting diagnosis for stabbing chest pains that also shoot up and down his left arm (not good), but I have had our latest family edition on standby, ‘Goldie’ the Toyota yaris.

It has made such a MASSIVE difference having a car, being able to be useful and contribute again to family life. I have taken the children all over this week.

It was whilst at the park with them after a busy day on Saturday night that it dawned on me. This ‘ordinary moment’ of taking our children to the park, I have only been dreaming of for the last few months as I literally couldn’t walk to the end of our street.

We made it though, I took Shayla and Judah on Friday before picking up Isis from school, but Judah was asleep. Obviously over the years I’ve been able to take Isis and Shayla many times, but Saturday evening, I took my 15 month old for the first time since he could walk. James had taken him without me, but this was so lovely for me to see him just loving the outdoors.

This ‘ordinary moment’ I never want to take for granted. I have a had a little taste of how hard motherhood must be for someone who is physically impaired and although people adjust, I haven’t enjoyed it. So grateful for the little things, and don’t ever want to always appreciate these ordinary moments.

I got so many lovely pictures of all the children, but here is Judah having a stroll.

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The Ordinary Moments #2

The Ordinary Moments #2

It was such a manic week for us last week with Shayla’s 4th birthday party and the in-laws staying. I am involved in so much social-action my mum is always telling me off (not because she’s against bettering our community, because I’m heavily pregnant). We are so busy all the time, and to be honest it means when I am still, and at home I’m pretty shattered and need to rest which isn’t ideal for Judah. As I’ve said before though, there wasn’t much I could do with him as I can’t get down to his level. Taking him places and letting him interact why other people and be sociable that way seems to have been the best I could do for him anyway. Well, now we have a car and I can take him places that is all about him so I’m looking forward to that.

This photo was taken on the morning of Shayla’s birthday. We were all just getting ready before the girls headed off to dance with the in-laws and I had to clean the house ready for her party. I took all the children downstairs to give them breakfast whilst the rest of the house was still dormant and decided to let Judah feed himself his cereal. It was the sweetest thing. He just felt like one of us, he had his bowl full of milk and Cheerios (I know… bad mum alert as they have sugar, he’s so thin though I figure what’s the harm? So long as I brush his teeth and it’s not too regular….. *excuses).

Well, there was no splashing the milk, tipping over his bowl, he just say there in his high chair and ate them all. At 14 months I have to say, I was so proud of him. May be pathetic to others out there but to me these ordinary moments are what life is all about. My little boy is growing up and there are still so many things I will get to watch for the first time. I love him so much.

Here’s Judah eating his Cheerios

Love

Alexandra
Xxxx

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