Today I awoke at my in-laws with a funeral ahead of me. It was bizarre, we all wanted to give our best and it was like we were getting ready to go to a wedding. The hubby dashed out at 9am to the nearest barbers to get his hair cut. We all wanted to look our best for Richard. I said I wouldn’t weigh myself whilst we were away, but my in-laws have some good digital scales, so after my shower I wondered if the day before (fish and chips) had done much damage.
133.4kg’s, 1.3kg loss again. I felt spurred on to keep being as good as I could. 4 crumpets with butter were consumed for breakfast (I was VERY hungry), lunch was 2 tiny finger sandwiches of ham and lettuce at the wake, with 2 mini scones covered in strawberries and cream. I resisted the Haribo favours I had made two days previous and the multiple biscuits on offer.
After the crematorium we returned to my husband’s auntie and uncle’s (the parents of our lost loved one) and what hadn’t been consumed at the funeral parlour were being passed out again (biscuits/scones). I managed to resist but when we got in the car to return to the in-laws I told my husband I needed to eat something before I carried out the binge that my body (and nerves) were so desperately craving. I was hungry but had been resisting filling that void with rubbish.
I had some toast when we arrived back in and then for dinner, my mother in law had put a delicious steak casserole in the slow cooker. It was so good, I filled right up. I consciously stuffed myself with the meat, veg and potatoes so I didn’t want to consume any of our snacks stashed in our room for the journey home.
There wasn’t a bar available all day so I hadn’t consumed any alcohol. I had two teas, and two coffees at the wake (all with two sugars *oops*) lots of water and some cranberry juice to drink.
It could’ve been so much worse!!
I was pleased with my day considering the state my nerves were in and how I would usually comfort eat in this situation. I am finding keeping this food diary via my blog feature is helping me with my self-control, I hope it continues.